Renachelw Posted April 13, 2018 Report Share Posted April 13, 2018 Hi, I'm 22 and have been losing my hearing over a span of 7+ years, and the last 3 years was so bad that I need a CI to hear, but have not gone for the surgery. I'm currently surviving on lipreading. I feel like i'm becoming increasingly socially retarded, and being described often by people to be 'inept', 'lost', 'in a daze' etc. I am always awkwardly turning around in jerks etc. because i dont realise someone is behind me, and my face expressions becomes funny/weird. I really do not know if its because of my hearing or something else. Am I being lazy, or do i really feel tired all the time? How come I cant cope with work even if it's emails and hearing not needed etc.. i'm fine with writing articles and website stuff, but always nervous/make mistakes when emailing people. I do feel rather lost most of the time because I cannot hear, but sometimes even when it's not needed, like emails etc, I seem to be lacking/unable to do well? My grandma has hearing loss but idk, I think she is less 'inept' compared to me? I know that people around me think that 'not all deaf people are like that, its just you', and I keep getting scolded for not being alert/lost/lazy, but idk what else can be done?? i feel so lost? Like, i'm just sick of having people to understand me, because they dont? p.s: would just like to add that when I was 15 , I had really horrible bullying experience (not because of my hearing). So now idk if im like this, afraid to speak up, talk to ppl, withdrawn etc, because of my hearing or my confidence. I feel so lost and idk if this can be solved by CI or will i still be the same :/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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